ALOHA!!! @ I only know!!

Wrote this for a friend... one who brought some change when everything was monotonous... that too when it meant a lot. Dedicated to my Favourite Smiles... Dont cry ever the smile you flash makes many a day Dont cry ever there are hands that shall hold you through Dont cry ever nothings worth shedding that drop Dont cry ever its only treasured for only those so close Dont cry ever life's all about happiness-around you Dont cry ever you inspire many to smile through the day Dont cry ever you are too precious to hurt yourself inside Dont cry ever it makes friends wonder where they went wrong Dont cry ever a life's got so much more in store Dont cry ever a tear holds more than you know.......... A SMALL REQUEST: PLEASE DON'T LIFT ANYTHING FROM THIS BLOG WITHOUT ACKNOWLEDGEMENT. THAT TOO WITH PRIOR NOTICE... ITS MORE ABOUT EMOTIONS THAN WORDS...

No limb seems to work Cuz I know you aren't here I know this is being stupid But madness isnt what I fear Just a glance at you from afar Was enough to keep me going Your place remains empty for now Every second unusually slow in the moving Why did you have to keep away Making this life seem meaningless Nothing seems to keep me intrigued Come soon -Would do for a minute or even less As I sit here trying to fulfil my duties Only your thoughts fill up my mind The music you played keep ringing near Wish for a second with you even if only from behind Just your being here pulled me closer to happiness Knowing that you mix with the air I breathe I yearn for more than just a few moments Feel your fingers take mine as a lead Wish to walk in your shadow from right behind As I take in the feeling of your presence All these and more I ask for from time This is all I am in your absence................

As I lay by the ocean the waves rushing all over me I had a flashback of my life mine that i end letting my soul free I thank you mom, I thank you so for showering me with nothing but love I'll miss you dad, its so true miss your hand,in winters, warm in the glove Am going away dearest friend embarking on a journey all afresh I take no ticket on this train sorry fellow passenger, none's allowed aboard but me I take this route not cause of god a choice I made in ending my life Was but a weak moment, trust me I say it takes more than just courage to plunge so deep I dont claim chivalry as I've proven meek at large But it aint fear that lead me on this ridge pushing me down hell opens as I barge I feel the ocean throwing me back dont belong here you fool it says The world tried to push air through the closing stems in vain attempts to raise me from my haze As I lay still, I asked of god let me live this one time I want the world to know I love it...

I sat in an inebriated state Once again my mind devoid of all feeling Never so alone and stranded have I been I cry out loud, at the altar I kneel Where is the answer I demand to know Even this angst went unnoticed today I run with unbeknownst madness Watching every colour blur into grey Stumbling on every rock I ran on Persisted in my search for destiny So dark it seemed, I was scared Unsure where the next step shall take me My heart beat with pauses lasting long Every breath felt laborious I kept reeling back in time Only to be pained as I wound backwards Monotony set in featuring depression Albeit alone I wasn’t even a moment My heart cried in repudiation Not for once listening to me lament No song came through the flutes today Every spasm filled with emptiness The mind wandered, leaving no trails None can follow in its search for happiness

When there is Music in life, there is life in every minute... When there's Music in every minute, there is happiness in every memory... When there's Music in every memory, there's meaning to every expression... When there's Music to every expression, there is just one Me and my world... ...and in my world I live in the music played by god,  likening it to that played by my heart, my soul, my very being...

I wrote this poem on 2nd December 2010... a personal favorite... dont remember what inspired me to write this... but whatever it was, surely affected me... With a light I was born I was the child no man knew A sacrifice he said I would be Gift to god was what I thought My first steps pained none Nor did it raise a smile Pure disinterest followed on To cross I had many a mile With a tear in the eye I raised a single word Put down to sit imbecile Became an echo unheard The righteous spirit bounced back Never failing to fail me Left with no feeling nor life The eye watered never been so weary Life hung around like a prosthesis Existence so flamboyantly untrue With a light I was born I died burning through ------------------------------------------------DONT COPY BLINDLY... ATLEAST GIVE CREDIT TO THE POET...-----------------------------------------------

Its been a long time now I know... so what is it that made me come back here...even Iwonder...guess its the very independence of free-spirited expression of my thoughts that brings me back here. I plan to write about music... why? cuz its my latest love... one that has been rekindled due to some recent happenings and not so recent memories... this love has been passed on to me genetically with both parents loving music like their first child... dad being a nostalgic rock star and mom a highly trained vocalist... I was forced to imbibe this trail of classical music as a kid and after a few unimpressive(to myself only though) renditions, I surrendered to the world of excuses - bad throat, dont remember the words, my bro sings better...on and on goes the list... and thus I stopped singing... which I deeply and sadly regret today... Then came the phase of adolescence when rock and pop became food and water... grooved to the tunes, headbanged with friends, talked in slangs, tried writi...