ALOHA!!! @ I only know!!

As I lay by the ocean the waves rushing all over me I had a flashback of my life mine that i end letting my soul free I thank you mom, I thank you so for showering me with nothing but love I'll miss you dad, its so true miss your hand,in winters, warm in the glove Am going away dearest friend embarking on a journey all afresh I take no ticket on this train sorry fellow passenger, none's allowed aboard but me I take this route not cause of god a choice I made in ending my life Was but a weak moment, trust me I say it takes more than just courage to plunge so deep I dont claim chivalry as I've proven meek at large But it aint fear that lead me on this ridge pushing me down hell opens as I barge I feel the ocean throwing me back dont belong here you fool it says The world tried to push air through the closing stems in vain attempts to raise me from my haze As I lay still, I asked of god let me live this one time I want the world to know I love it...

I sat in an inebriated state Once again my mind devoid of all feeling Never so alone and stranded have I been I cry out loud, at the altar I kneel Where is the answer I demand to know Even this angst went unnoticed today I run with unbeknownst madness Watching every colour blur into grey Stumbling on every rock I ran on Persisted in my search for destiny So dark it seemed, I was scared Unsure where the next step shall take me My heart beat with pauses lasting long Every breath felt laborious I kept reeling back in time Only to be pained as I wound backwards Monotony set in featuring depression Albeit alone I wasn’t even a moment My heart cried in repudiation Not for once listening to me lament No song came through the flutes today Every spasm filled with emptiness The mind wandered, leaving no trails None can follow in its search for happiness

When there is Music in life, there is life in every minute... When there's Music in every minute, there is happiness in every memory... When there's Music in every memory, there's meaning to every expression... When there's Music to every expression, there is just one Me and my world... ...and in my world I live in the music played by god,  likening it to that played by my heart, my soul, my very being...

I wrote this poem on 2nd December 2010... a personal favorite... dont remember what inspired me to write this... but whatever it was, surely affected me... With a light I was born I was the child no man knew A sacrifice he said I would be Gift to god was what I thought My first steps pained none Nor did it raise a smile Pure disinterest followed on To cross I had many a mile With a tear in the eye I raised a single word Put down to sit imbecile Became an echo unheard The righteous spirit bounced back Never failing to fail me Left with no feeling nor life The eye watered never been so weary Life hung around like a prosthesis Existence so flamboyantly untrue With a light I was born I died burning through ------------------------------------------------DONT COPY BLINDLY... ATLEAST GIVE CREDIT TO THE POET...-----------------------------------------------